The Revolution of a Good Little Southern Baptist Girl

Posted on 05.05.06 in General and there are 15 comments.

I love sports. I play soccer and I run...infrequently. One of my favorite feelings in the world is that sore, achey, stiff feeling in your body after you've pushed yourself too hard - for too long. I know. I'm weird. But I just love knowing that I went one step farther than I thought I could. I love to push myself and find out that what I thought was my all - wasn't.

The superstars of our world are those who pushed themselves beyond what anyone thought they could do. Record breaking athletes. Ground breaking artists. They didn't seek comfort. They knew that "comfort" is where the average reside. They didn't seek comfort. They sought revolution.

This verse has been hopping around in my head lately:

"Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."

-Ephesians 20-21

Wow. God is more than I could ask or imagine. Let's say that again, together:

God is more than I could ask or imagine.

Honestly, my version of God hasn't been that big. My version of God has had more to do with what others have said He does and who others have said He is. My God has been - comfortable.

I'm ready to change that. I'm ready to believe that God is bigger than I'd ever imagined.

I have no idea where that will take me or what I'm supposed to do. I'll still cook dinner tonight and mop the floor, but inside, I feel the rumblings of a revolution. An overthrow of all the spoonfed, preconceived notions and limitations I've had of God.

I'm ready to imagine and I'm ready to ask.

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Wow.  Big stuff.  I’ll pray for you about it.  I agree with you that all too often our concept of God is waaaaay too small.  I think change is possible, and a bigger picture become a reality when we allow ourselves to have been wrong, perhaps even for all of our lives up until this very moment, about some of the beliefs and thoughts we’ve held the tightest.  As soon as God can say and be anything He needs or desires to be in our lives, anything, then I think we’ve got a shot at growth.

Beautiful Kat.  I needed to hear that today.

Seth

Kat - Amazing.

I’ve been feeling the same thing lately, and it’s increasing. It’s a sense of awe and helplessness and surrender to whatever the Lord wants to do, accompanied by a distinct sense that nothing I am, and nothing in me, can effect the changes that need to occur in my life.

It’s a clear and sobering awareness that I’ve had many past failures; but it’s also a strong and distinct sense that the Lord really is moving in our midst, and it really is different this time, and what’s occurring is much bigger than we’ve been willing to imagine.

It’s the very ground beneath our feet moving, and nothing nearby to hold onto. And He is going to do what He will, so we’d better just learn to let go and prepare to be amazed.

Exactly, Hammer. And if I might add to that - a deep desire to be a part of it rather than a spectator.

Kat, since I am new to the blogging world, I haven’t had much interaction with your blogs.  But one thing I have noticed in your blogs and comments is your beautiful teachable spirit.  Your vulnerability to God is apparent, and your post is inspiring.  You are a great person in a great place.  Asking questions is hard, especially asking questions to God.  Because there’s a bit of an insecurity in them, not in God, but in what you believed to be God.  God is the same yesterday, today, and forever.  His love remains for you as strong as it ever was, and He’s big enough for this.  Exciting stuff, can’t wait to read all about it.

Thanks for stopping by and sharing your thoughts, FP. I’m so encouraged by your comment. I’m excited about what God’s been doing in my life and in my husband’s life this past year or so. It’s a slow burn revolution, but we’re starting to see some sparks. I think that God has given both of us an increasing desire to be teachable and I think that’s really laid a foundation for all that we’ve been learning lately.

so great to read this today.  I too am a mom who has to mop up this cheerios today, or sweep rather, but I like to push myself even in that.  i like to see how fast I can do housework and burn as many calories as possible.  gives me some satisfaction.  I also loved what you had to say about God.  It is great to keep searching for Him through all of the different times in our lives, even though right now, I don’t understand where he is taking me.  I am learning to trust.  one more question.  which pride and prejudice movie?  I love the 6 hour A and E version.

Operamama,
Did I mention pride and prejudice in another post? I must have, I just don’t remember the context. I saw the Kiera Knightly one. I really liked it. There were a couple times when I think the editor and cinematographer must have gotten into a scuffle and the cinematographer won, but other than that, it was great.

I have yet to see the A&E;version. I searched for it, but it doesn’t seem that anyone here in town has it. I did just find out that a friend has it, so as soon I have have 6 free hours, I’m going to watch it. Perhaps 2010?
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blessed are those who hunger after rightousness, for they shall be filled.

what great thoughts...know these were from awhile ago, but am interested what perspective you have on this (17mths. later). Did the “rumblings” turn into something? What did God reveal to you?

We are going thru the same thing right now (about 3mths. into it), and are wondering what the road ahead holds. Our pastor spoke on John 15 last week, and it holds true with where we are.

Crazy thing: we’re following about 10-15 blogs (most from people we don’t know), that are experiencing the same thing. Maybe this “revolution” is bigger than we realize. Isn’t our God?!

Brandon,
I can’t say that God revealed one specific thing to me over the last 17 months, but I can say that I’ve not had such a season of growth and change since college. It may be even bigger than the things I experienced in college.

It’s been an amazingly rich season for me and I’m still in the midst of it. I guess that one of the main things that God has revealed to me is that there is a lot of need in the world and no matter how much money or time I do or don’t have, I can make a difference.

I’ve also gained a greater understanding that my life isn’t all about me - it’s all about Him and His purpose, glory and fame; there is so much freedom in that.

I’m glad God’s doing some things in your family as well, Brandon. Was there something in particular that started it?

We are going thru the same thing right now (about 3mths. into it), and are wondering what the road ahead holds. Our pastor spoke on John 15 last week, and it holds true with where we are.

This post is really old, but I just stumbled on it and it is so applicable to where I’m at right now, and I just found it really encouraging, so thanks.
God has been changing my life in huge ways over the past few months, and I feel like I’m in this weird place where I just don’t know what to expect next. All I know is that I want to see God MOVE like He never has before in my life, in my community group (fancy word for Bible Study), and on my campus. I want Him to use me, and I want to be open to whatever that means. At Campus Crusade, we’ve been praying for 5,000 students to come to Christ in the next few years and sometimes that seems a little overwhelming. But the Bible says that God can move NATIONS, so what’s a few little changes in my life, and what’s 5,000 students on this campus? God is so much bigger than I can even conceive...and that’s really just incredible.

Lindsey,
I’m so glad this post encouraged you. It sounds like you’re in a great place. I know that college was an amazing and transforming time for me. I hope it is for you too...and for 5,000 other students.

Kat:

I revisited this entry today.  Mainly due to some rumblings in my own world.

I have seen alot in my time following God.  Physical healings; prostitutes set free from drugs & turning tricks then reunited with thier families; church leaders get born again; the godless get born again; the devil possessed set free. 

But when we think we have seen it all, or done it all, we become complacent.  I need revolution in own life, thanks for the reminder.

I can see a change in the things you talk about.  And I can see that your comment above is evident:

“I’ve also gained a greater understanding that my life isn’t all about me - it’s all about Him and His purpose, glory and fame; there is so much freedom in that.”

Its a very liberating thing.  Jesus said that those who will be great, will be the servant of all.  We have to look outside ourselves. 

Just wanted you to know I noticed. Stay the course, you are on the right path.

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